Adult?

It's weird to think that I'm closer to being a father than I am to being a 9th grader. Parts of high school seem so fresh and clear in my mind while the prospect of being a father is so foreign and strange and life altering. The thought that I'm closer to filing patents at 150 an hour than I am to stocking shelves at Kroger for 8 and hour is shocking. Having money, and adequate money at that rate is bizarre, almost unjust. The notion that I'm closer to buying a piece of property than I am to applying for housing at UGA is scary. Life goes by so fast, especially the care free years, but I was never a care free kind of guy. I never liked not having responsibility. When I lacked responsibilities I was reckless, unproductive and often miserable. It's conventional to believe that your young and care free years are your happiest. After your early 20's it just goes downhill. I don't think so for me. I have more responsibility right now than I've ever had in my entire life. I don't have a million friends, I don't go out that often, but I'm happier than I've been in a while. It makes me think, maybe, that my happiness is related to my productivity, my responsibility to myself. Now perhaps this is superficial happiness but I really don't think so. I think the happiest days of my life are ahead of me, not behind. I'm sick of the notion that undergrad is the best time, because for me, much of it wasn't that great. I certainly had my high points, but I had just as many very low points. I saw a professional looking business man carrying a toddler today. I looked at the guy and he wasn't that much older than I was. It was kind of a scary moment to think I'd be that guy soon. I can't wait though, I think I'll be a happy father. Guess I should find a girl first.
Lyric of the Day: (A disclaimer, this lyric has nothing to do with me or my life, I just like it)
"Happiness is such hard work, and it gets harder every day
And it can kill you, but no one wants to be that tacky about it,
If you spin fast enough than maybe the broken pieces of your heart will stay together
But some things I’ve seen lately make me doubt it."
-The Dismemberment Plan