the grind

Sometimes the daily monotony of things gets to be really difficult. It's not like undergrad where you had this week or so a month where you had to work a lot, had a few tests within a couple days and had some stupid drama going on in your life on top of it all. You're either in route to school, in class, or studying between classes from 8-5 everyday. You get home, chill out for a minute, read for an hour or so, cook dinner, and read for the rest of the night. It's a constant thing and it really fucking gets to you sometimes. I have a feeling one of the few friends I've made at school is struggling with it all. I seriously like the girl as much as you can possibly like a girl not on the market. She's wicked cool and is working really hard and I really hope she sticks with it. I hope she understands that we all get to that point where we're on the brink of cracking. There've been nights where I've hated every letter of every word of every sentence I've read for the entire night. I've had nights where I wanted to hop a plane, go back to athens, and get back to managing and cooking at Locos. I've gotten to the point where things have become so stressful that I had that panic feeling I hated from undergrad years. I've felt like going out and getting blackout drunk. I've felt like crying, yelling, quitting, leaving and we're only just past the month mark. I mean it's gonna get harder, not easier, and there's no simple way to tell someone that you want them to stick with it. Especially when it's for selfish reasons-they're one of you're few friends at school, they're one of the few cool people you've met, they're one of the few people you can talk to about the struggles of the first year. It's self-centered, selfish reasons, but seriously kid, if you ever read this, you're one of like 4 cool people in our section and we need more lawyers like you. I don't know, it's hard to know that someone you've gotten close to is struggling. I struggled like a week ago, and will probably be struggling next week, it's okay, we'll get through it and we'll be better for it. Everyone struggles sometimes, it's part of the process.
Lyric:
"Heaven, heaven is a place, a place where nothing, nothing ever happens."
-The Talking Heads