Every minute of every hour

I feel like every minute of every hour for the next couple weeks is planned. It's not that all I do is study-I do other things but only because they benefit the studying. For example, I didn't work out tonight because I had some extra time and thought it'd be beneficial for my health. I worked out because I knew if I didn't I wouldn't sleep well. If I didn't sleep well, I wouldn't be very productive tommorrow. I also watched TV for about an hour. Not because I had the hour to spare but because if i didn't I was, well, I was gonna go crazy. I take time to eat, take time to relax but it's not relaxing if it's only relaxing for the purpose of being more productive. That doesn't make much sense but it does in my head so at this point I don't really give a fuck. Like writing this blog, another example. It's not because I want my friends to know what's going on with me or because I want to be able to look back and reflect on what was my 1L experience. It was all that at first but now it's just because it's my only source where I can really just vent. And so now I'm gonna go to bed, because I gotta wake up at 6am and read some god-forsaken fucking constitutional law about Equal Protection or some other shit I don't really care about at this point. Why do we have class up until the Friday when finals start on Monday? How stupid is that? I'm gonna go to sleep and listen to some melodramatic shit to make me fall asleep. I'm gonna listen to Stars, I'm gonna listen to Black Keys The Lengths, Bright Eyes, Hem all that shit. And tommorrow, I'm gonna go to school and be an asshole just for the hell of it. Just because I feel like it and I don't feel like talking to anybody and I don't feel like explaining shit. And you know what I really don't want? What I really hate? I REALLY don't want someone to try and explain anything to me tommorrow. There's like all of two people I listen to when they begin to explain things to me and frankly, if I'm not meeting with you after school to talk about things, if I don't sit with you in the library, you ARE NOT one of these two or three people so I don't want you explaining things to me. Is that clear? No explaining things. Do not explain concepts because A) You don't get it B) I already get it C) I'm not going to listen to what you're trying to explain whether it's right or not. You are probably right, but I need to figure it out on my own. Enjoy your wealth of knowledge you Young Turk. You fucking 168, good work way to turn down U of C congratulations. Fuck off. Is it necessary to tell everyone that you got into a much better school. Really, it makes me think you're just a fucking idiot and a pussy for not going to a school where you'd have trouble keeping up. At this point I'm working hard to beat you just to spite you. My self motivation has long run out by my loathing for some people in my class is sufficient to keep me going 14 hours a day. I apologize to anyone who reads this. It is the result of a frustrating day and what is looking to be a long, frustrating, sleep deprived, painful couple weeks. I love like 90 percent, well 75 percent...at least half of my section and this really isn't meant to be knock on any of my friends or anyone that could possibly end up reading this. Today blows.
Lyrics:
"Well, I woke up on a foggy morning. Hiding from the sun, he was hiding from the sun. But it came out and it shot its rays down."
Okkervil River The Latest Toughs: You're goddamn right.