Need This

I've been good. I've never really cheated on anyone. I've never stolen anything that I can think of. I rarely try and hurt someone on purpose and when I do, I feel so bad that I'm apologizing for weeks. I'm kind to my fellow man. When there's work to be done, I do it. When there's tears to be shed, I'm there as a shoulder. When somebody needs a hand, I offer it.

This summer I haven't drank very much. I haven't borrowed much money from the parents. I haven't gone on vacation. I haven't spent much money. I've lived frugally. I've busted my ass at work despite the fact that the job isn't very challenging and only pays $8.50. I've been nice to my coworkers. I've hid the fact that I'm in law school as best as I can because I think it makes people come off as an ass. I've done everything. I've studied, I did my best to try and write on to law review, I've applied for jobs, I've done loan things, I've got in better shape. I haven't volunteered, but I don't think there's an hour in the day where I could have.

Sure, I mess up. Occasionally I drink too much and do something stupid. Once in a while I say something horrible. Once in a while I think something mean-spirited. But still, throw me a bone.

I need to pass this test on Wednesday, and I really don't think I'm going to. I feel like I've put in the hours and it's just not working. I'm just not doing well. I need to improve big time in the next week. I don't think anything has intimidated me as much as this. So yeah, I'm screwed. I could use some help. I could use a job, I could use an offer to be on law review to boost the confidence, and I could definetly use some lucky guesses on Wednesday. I would greatly appreciate your assistance in these matters. Thank you for your time and consideration.

Evan

Lyric: "The world is a hundred to one again." Sufjan Stevens

P.S. I'll make that lame promise that I'll go to church every week for, oh, the first six weeks of school, because after that I know I'll just disappoint.