Absent

Haven't posted in a while. Finals are kicking my ass. This shit is kind of ridiculous. I mean, I'm smart, but that civ pro question was just dick. Straight high school talk we got going here. Anyways-started snowing apparently tonight while i was in the library. I walk outside about 830pm to catch my bus, yeah 8 inches on the ground. Wait 45 minutes in the snow and 15 degree weather and Chicago wind, only to eventually give up and catch another bus that brings me like 5 blocks from my house. In snow, that feels like about 15. But honestly, the snow is so great-it's just different. You get used to the cold. Tea, coffee, soup taste better. Hot showers are AMAZING. This city is so fucking great. The city lights and the city people are the only thing that make finals tolerable. I love it.

So yeah, is it a problem that i have to drink a gin and tonic every night to chill out? Perhaps 1L is the reason there are so many damn alcoholic lawyers. Honestly, there's bars that cater just to lawyers.

Tommorrow, for the final, I'm gonna walk in with headphones on. Can't let 'em see you sweat. Kristen said it was intimidating to others and soothing to her-so that's the plan. Kind of like TO walking into Eagles camp-but different.

The Urge "Closer" old school stylie made me think of someone so much tonight. I have 3,000+ songs on Itunes and it hasn't come up on "random" in at least a year. Tonight it did-kind of strange, feeling sentimental but it was good stuff. For once in my life, it brings back such fond memories instead of how I fucked stuff up. It reminds me that I didn't fuck it up enough to ruin a friendship, for which I'm so grateful now. People say the friends/ex thing can't work. It can.

Why does law school blur perspectives so much? You have to alter your view of everything to do well and it some how blurs your view of reality. It's really weird. You get so close to these people so quick, finals role around, and everyone is on their own. Let's just be friends on the 16th.

Not gonna win the makeout contest. I'll be lucky with 1.

Lab to work to cooking to counting money to drinking till 2am to Timothy Road, to Macon Highway, to Milledge, to Milledge Court, to cold shower (because we didn't pay the bill, just to clarify) to watching The Shield for hours. It was a strange life, but it was life and sometimes I miss that life. Like tonight, rolling the windows down, making that drive listening to "blacking out the friction"-that'd be great. Wish i was at the Secret Santa party-but alas, life must progress. Christ, as much as I miss people, I'm so glad it progressed. Let's get finals over and have some fun kids.
Lyrics:
"All I ever wanted was to pick apart the day, put the pieces back together my way."
Aesop Rock.