My first exam experience..

12 Hours till I'm done with what may be the most heralding, distrubing, mind boggling, frustrating, difficult, challenging, spirit crushing, stimulating, troubling, defeating, changing experience I've ever had. Okay, well that was sufficiently melodramatic. But seriously, this experience is kind of defeating and really does kill you sometimes. I mean, how hard can you work at something, and if you fuck up for even 20 minutes of a three hour test-your grade is fucked. I mean, people talk about how the law school exam process is three hours that decide your entire fate, your success, but when you're in it-20 minutes can decide your success. Civil procedure, for example. While answering a terrible hypothetical, i spent 20 minutes going down the completely wrong path-i figured out the right answer, but not really in time to provide any sort of in-depth analysis. To be completely honest, I could not be more disappointed with how I performed. Not disappointed with how I prepared, not disappointed with what I knew, none of that-just how I performed. I mean I completely fucking choked on civil procedure and haven't exactly been a stud with the others. It's difficult for me to guage the intelligence of the class. I mean it's no UofC, but these people aren't stupid. I'm not the smartest kid in the world, but when they throw in 60 mechanical or chemical engineers in a law school section-i have NO idea how I'm gonna measure up. Granted, they're science kids-maybe they blow at writing, but still. I mean, we've got Phd's, masters students, and it's no secret they throw all the scholarship kids in one section to battle it out for their money. That section is ours-the fun of being in IP. Nevertheless, I knew the shit-sure i could've performed better, written a little faster-the stuff could've come to the forefront of my mind faster than it did, but still at least it did. No point in beating myself up now. Might as well finish some US v. Lopez analysis and go to bed. I know con law, hell i love con law. Let's just go and bust out an A tommorrow and get old school shitty.