What was.

So sometimes things don't work out. Sometimes people don't work. Sometimes personalities just can't mesh, can't mix. I suppose there are very few people in the world that are perfect together. I really don't believe most people ever find that person. I think generally we can find a person that we get along really well with, so much to the point that we're willing to work out all the kinks. We work and we work and someday, most people find themselves in something that feels perfect, something that seems perfect. Hopefully that feeling of perfection lasts, but generally it fades. You end up with someone long enough, you grow to love their flaws instead of loathe them. When you're with someone long enough, you learn to love the person, not because they're perfect for you, but just because they're another person. You'll have your songs together, you'll have your moments, and you'll have your memories. You'll have restaurants you shared, maybe some vacations you shared. But that doesn't mean that person is perfect for you. That doesn't mean that's your soulmate. In the end, you just find yourself happy, but you don't find each other perfect. Really, you just craft your relationship so that maybe it feels like a "soulmate." It's probably not.

I think a lot of the reason things didn't work out in this past relationship is that it's really difficult to be tolerant, and patient, and put in the time required to make things work when you're in law school. The chances of finding yourself in a perfect relationship is slim, and when you don't have the time to work on it, things get complicated. I hope I didn't fuck stuff up too much. It'd be bad to have to see someone every single day and have there be serious tension. It sucks to not have things work out with someone you care so much about, but better now than later. Hard to let go of someone you have become protective of, it always is. Maybe we can still be drinking buddies. Because as we all know, all law school is training to be an alcoholic.

Lyric:
"This is the start of what was."
The Streets