AHH

• I want to dive into a lake or river with really paralyzingly cold water. Preferably that river my brother and I jumped into in Glacier National.
• I want to lift weights until my arms get that numb feeling.
• I want to run until my lungs burn. I want to run until I feel like throwing up.
• I want to yell at someone.
• I want to punch a wall.
• I want to tell the people that shake their cups asking for change: "Why the fuck would I give someone who annoys the living shit out of me money FOR annoying the living shit out of me!"
• I just want to get mad at something, and I want to express it, and I don't want to have to hold it in.

All this stone cold sober. I fucking hate this shit so much. I get this anxious feeling like 3 or 4 times a year where I just want to crawl out of my skin and yell, or rage on something. I just want some physical feeling, some physical expression. Something besides the usual nod and fucking smile all goddamn day long. I don't want to hear about anyone's jobs, I don't want to hear about anyone's interviews, or anyone's outlines. Well, there are a few select okay people I don't mind studying with, so don't be offended. But seriously, I think if I have to see some of these people in my section one more damn day I'm gonna flip. The point where people's incompetence was cute and funny has turned into being painfully annoying and just unacceptable. Hearing people's liberal political opinion makes me HATE MY POLITICAL VIEWS!!! I want the people in my class to realize that they are not Jon Stewart and the wiseass remarks they make about the President or about politics are incredibly unoriginal.

Had to get that all out. Sorry.